Morning after!

Well,  I did not sleep because this week is always hard and whether before or after since the opening of this wound I dream weird dreams. Dreams that I know in some way it is me trying to piece things together, explain, but it is in these moments where I MUST seek the Prince of Peace and Trust that I am his and he will calm my storm.  

God I thank you for many things.  I thank you for the family of Christ you have given me, the people you have put in my path along this journey and just for your promise that you would never leave or forsake me.  

It is interesting the emails, text and calls I have gotten.  Not just in regards to my blog but also to my post about my son Michael.  It is weird to be so open about it but for more details you will just have to wait for the book.  As a Christian my son Michael has not been a secret to me or to those that I shared him with.  It is hard to be the one to tell the story especially knowing that people talk and perceptions are usually wrong.  I was 14 years old, got pregnant my first time, carried to term and then lost my son in the most traumatic of ways.  A lot of what I am going through now with my health; has to do with Michael and what my body went threw but only God could have known that healing from the deepest parts were in store for me.  

It is a new day, a day of celebration.  I will always remember him and remember that my life is a miracle because medically I should not be here.  So, I do my best even in the darkest feelings to celebrate life and the life that God is allowing me to live.  I pray that one day I can share more publicly and help other young girls and lets not forget the boyz.  This is one of the reasons I am such a big advocate for Safe Haven programs.I have dreams about places that children like Michael or their parents could go to.  I have dreams of hope, life, joy.  I have dreams now where before it was all a nightmare.  I thank God that I am able to share my story no matter what form or for how long.   Well, my brain is out of sorts so I am going to leave blogging some more for later.  I just wanted to say thank you and share a little more!  I pray for those of you that have lost a child for it is a heartache that is always with you.  I pray for you that feels alone that God can provide for  you what you need most at this time. 

Today, celebrate you!  Celebrate the life that your Creator has given you! 

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