My heart is so heavy today. No one but my God can fully understand the broken feeling I am experiencing I had to write because as I listen to a particular playlist just to stay in the moment. I have to process this because I been kinda stuck today is the first time in months I cried. You see I think we have all become so busy its easy to ignore the pain, grief and those dark places of life. It is these places that God wants to bring healing but.....
I think sometimes its just easier be angry because feeling rejected is not nice. But Well I have to admit it may seem like I am coming out of left field but I am not really willing to go into details but this is what I will say life sucks at times! Thats' the thing it doesn't always have to be that way. I know it gets rough and sometimes things seem hopeless and you may question why am I even alive but as Pink would say your F--Perfect. I am not trying to encourage more self absorption that has left me to where I am right now but what I am trying to say is that stuff with family and any relationship is complicated and as we try to "clean out our closet" we have to stop worrying who we hurt when we finally tell our story. After all it is my story and I can't please everyone, nor can i be PC all the time have you met me, I am me not YOU! Kelly Clarkson says Because of you she realizes she reacts to current relationships because of her upbring in that song. And that is the thing we need to figure out why do we think what we think. We need to ask the questions, even if those questions are about our belief in God. Our past really develops our present but it ain't going to determine my future..... NO WAY JOSE!!!! A phrase I would say as a kid, but still hold true God loves me, God has a plan for me.
Healing is a process....
Life is a process.....
Sometimes we are not okay and that is when one person can make the world of a difference. And, I and maybe you need to learn to stay away from people and things that are toxic to becoming whom we dream of being. God you know I want to make you proud because in you I am woman loved, fearfully, wonderfully made and you got me Lord so thank you!!!
I think sometimes its just easier be angry because feeling rejected is not nice. But Well I have to admit it may seem like I am coming out of left field but I am not really willing to go into details but this is what I will say life sucks at times! Thats' the thing it doesn't always have to be that way. I know it gets rough and sometimes things seem hopeless and you may question why am I even alive but as Pink would say your F--Perfect. I am not trying to encourage more self absorption that has left me to where I am right now but what I am trying to say is that stuff with family and any relationship is complicated and as we try to "clean out our closet" we have to stop worrying who we hurt when we finally tell our story. After all it is my story and I can't please everyone, nor can i be PC all the time have you met me, I am me not YOU! Kelly Clarkson says Because of you she realizes she reacts to current relationships because of her upbring in that song. And that is the thing we need to figure out why do we think what we think. We need to ask the questions, even if those questions are about our belief in God. Our past really develops our present but it ain't going to determine my future..... NO WAY JOSE!!!! A phrase I would say as a kid, but still hold true God loves me, God has a plan for me.
Healing is a process....
Life is a process.....
Sometimes we are not okay and that is when one person can make the world of a difference. And, I and maybe you need to learn to stay away from people and things that are toxic to becoming whom we dream of being. God you know I want to make you proud because in you I am woman loved, fearfully, wonderfully made and you got me Lord so thank you!!!
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