I got a lot on my mind. Its one of those times when you can be in a room full a people and still feel alone. Or you just don't know wheather to laugh or cry....
I just want to be held........ Mary says it best http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HOGmtnChKec
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
It has been awhile.................
It is weird the things that make you think about how much time has passed. My nephew is here with us; who is like the mini version of my husband which is bitter-sweet. The last time he was here is when I fell. Which was July 28th at 5am in the morning and I am so emotional about it...........
I feel like..... I am not even sure but 8 months is a long time to be dealing with Chronic Pain like this. Yeah, I have always had health issues but this, this is insane. I realize that I can't be anything other than me at this moment. That I have to take care of me first which look like GOD, ME, and my hubby!!!!!!!!Then all the other crap. Because boy people sure know how to bring you down. I have to take care of me. I am not trying to be selfish by no means because I know God has given me a gift of being a care taker but people sure know how to suck life and joy out of you. I am speaking in general terms because for each of us it could be friends, family, television whatever. I think sometimes we have to learn to Pause/Selah and think about things!!!!!!!!!!!!! Why am I doing thing? For who? you know what are my intentions is this a relationship that is good for me? All those things. Life is short and the more we allow others to Sabotage we (if you your anything like what I am trying not to be) then you can really destroy things. I believe that God sent his son to bring us FREEDOM; we are the idiots who make all these rules. The Creator wants us to see we are connected and we need to love and respect and be kind to each other. I believe that Christ is my Prince of Peace and if I put him first I will find my healing. And so I have to set some real boundaries again in my life and realize once again that some people just love misery Search Amazon.com for boundaries
I feel like..... I am not even sure but 8 months is a long time to be dealing with Chronic Pain like this. Yeah, I have always had health issues but this, this is insane. I realize that I can't be anything other than me at this moment. That I have to take care of me first which look like GOD, ME, and my hubby!!!!!!!!Then all the other crap. Because boy people sure know how to bring you down. I have to take care of me. I am not trying to be selfish by no means because I know God has given me a gift of being a care taker but people sure know how to suck life and joy out of you. I am speaking in general terms because for each of us it could be friends, family, television whatever. I think sometimes we have to learn to Pause/Selah and think about things!!!!!!!!!!!!! Why am I doing thing? For who? you know what are my intentions is this a relationship that is good for me? All those things. Life is short and the more we allow others to Sabotage we (if you your anything like what I am trying not to be) then you can really destroy things. I believe that God sent his son to bring us FREEDOM; we are the idiots who make all these rules. The Creator wants us to see we are connected and we need to love and respect and be kind to each other. I believe that Christ is my Prince of Peace and if I put him first I will find my healing. And so I have to set some real boundaries again in my life and realize once again that some people just love misery Search Amazon.com for boundaries
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